The End of the Story: No gay Girl lives in Damascus

Monday, June 13, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (0)

Well, for those who have been following the news for a recently made famous Blog Called a Gay Girl in Damascus. The Story was reaching a climax in the past few days when many bloggers have questioned the authenticity of the writer and the recent claims that she have been kidnapped by the Syrian Authorities. Which lead many bloggers to start a campaign on FB calling for her release.

However, the rumors and recent doubts that the blog was run and administered from far far away ( Ireland) reached it's end when the person behind the blog Tom Macmaster Published an official Apology on the Blog.

Now, as much as many people may view this topic as strictly harmless, I feel that this move had made many people take great doubts in the news and information provided by internet activists living in Syria. Although the end of this step was obviously intended to raise the flag on crimes being made in Syria. It has made many people skeptic with what they hear and listen to. And I don't think that's a good thing. the people in Syria are suffering greatly with the brutal force of the regime and they don't want any reason for the international community to doubt their actions and their suffering.

on the other hand, I appreciate the move that Macmaster did eventually, which although was done after almost public identification of his real persona, but helped people to start looking for other means of news on what's happening in Syria.

My heart and feelings with those suffering there, and I hope this can reach an end that secures freedom to Syrians

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E-readers: a gift or a curse

Saturday, June 11, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (1)










Well, for those who don't know, my 27th Birthday was in February, that was about 4 months from now. I was extremely busty and depressed at the time to write anything. and it was also a very Quite birthday, just me and my Bueno in this oweful place called saudi arabia.
but I was happy though with my new present; an Amazon Kindle e-reader. Now, that was a really great surprise, my Bueno knew exactly what to bring me on this occasion.
So, it's been almost four months now since I've got it, I downloaded more than 3000 book son it along with some other songs to listen to during reading. but, I have to confess that I still fell something is wrong. I was really used to paper books, and it was one of my pure pleasures to visit the Bookshop and spend hours looking for my next new read.
Now, I miss that. it's much cheaper to download books, but it still feels that a part of me is missing, it was also a real pleasure seeing my Bookshelf getting bigger and bigger.
So, I started thinking back of buying books, or at least buying books that I liked reading so that I can add them to my books.
What do you think? I mean I really love my Kindle, but I still am unable to tell my Bueno that I will be buying some new paper books, because that was the reason she brought me my E-reader in the first place.

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No place for good people in Jordan!

Friday, June 10, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (0)

I know this is an exaggeration, but I can't help but to think about it more closely. in the past couple of days I've been contacted by a very promising person, who holds a graduate degree from a UK university in the field of Genetics. Now, for those who don't know much about medical fields then I tell you that this particular field was regarded as one of the highly promising career paths in Jordan, or this was what we were told! Her main complaint is that she can't find a place that can appreciate her possibilities and potentials, and although she admits having some good( but very few) facilities. She admits that they only focus on basic care.

I felt sad for her, through the course of my experience I've met with two other people who have studied in the same field in highly respected foreign universities to end up with no idea what to do with their degrees. One of them ended up teaching a totally different specialty here with me in Saudi.
I've also been through that whole agonizing process, after graduating with an honors at the Bachelors from the University of Jordan, I sacrificed getting a scholarship and wasted lots of time and effort to pursue my graduate studies in Public Health. Only to realize later that all my efforts have gone useless, and that all the things I read about how awesome public health was almost nonexistent in Jordan. So, I too had to settle for a teaching job in Saudi.
The stories I hear are so annoying, I mean I really wish to go back to Jordan and find a decent job that makes me able to live a proper life. But, I seem to always hit a dark spot.
Now, I've been accepted for a PhD in a very specialized field, Childhood Cancer Survivorship, that is , the study of late effects that happen with children who survive their cancer treatment and dealing with all the physiologic, psychologic and social issues that occur.
Now, to my knowledge, that is a highly respected field. and I also will be getting my experience at a highly ranked school and working at one of the best childhood cancer hospitals in the world, so I have nothing not to be excited about.

but then, I think of what future I do have with this degree, I was actually crossing fingers at working at King Hussien Institute of Biotechnology and Cancer ( KHIBC), but now, with the new setback. I think I have to delay these hopes.
That makes me( and almost every other foreign university medical graduate) with very few options, the only one I can think of is teaching at a Jordanian University.
For those who think that this sounds as a great opportunity, think again. University professors have very low wages to support them a good living. along with the social and financial obligations that taking this position brings with.
So, the other option is to stay out of Jordan, either immigrating to a country where you'll be appreciated, or taking the easier option of living in a Gulf country and trying to save some money to do something when going back.

This seems a bit of a dark future for Jordan, I really hope that I'll get the chance to get back home, but now, the light at the end of the tunnel seems to be fading with each step forward.

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A new setback in Cancer Care in Jordan: King Hussein Institute of Biotechnology and Cancer Brought to a Halt

Sunday, June 05, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (0)


For those who are not well informed on Cancer Care in Jordan; There was a huge step back in 2007 when a new Center for Cancer Care was Established, it was titled King Hussein institute of Biotechnology and Cancer (KHIBC).
This center was expected to be a leading research institue in the whole middle east region, it was layed very close to the dead sea region, in the previous location of what was formarily the children's Forest. It was intended to a research and treatment center for the whole middle east region.
Things were very bright at the beginning, the institute was patronized by King Abdullah himself and was heavily funded by the US national Cancer institute and the US embassy in Amman.
I was following news of the center closely for the past years. I can't hide that being a member in the center was the ultimate dream for any one working in the field of cancer in Jordan.
However, in the past months following the financial US crisis and Fiscal budget in Jordan I started to hear less and less news of the institute. this was a very bad sign, the institute was doing lots of work that has suddenly all stopped.
I was in doubt till I recently got information from a Friend. The King Hussein Institute for Biotechnology and Cancer has been brought to a halt. The financial crisis made the support and budget reach the minimum. I was told employees were asked to stay only till the end of July this year.
I can't tell you how sad I felt when I heard these news. There went a project that carried hope and future for the region all for financial issues and corruption. I was very disappointed with these news. I also knew that the whole project and buildings are waiting for a Royal decree to see if they can go on with it. I hope that they'll get it, because this project represents a whole new image for Health Care in Jordan.

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Nine Kinds of Students

Monday, May 16, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (2)

Check out this very amusing post from Matt Might Blog. What kind of students do we see in class:


But I really have to confess, I almost never deal with some of those types here in Saudi, they're either scouts or Spies!!!
I hate that......

The Soldier

Quiet, obedient and consistent, the Soldier charges into every assignment and stops only once enough damage is done to get the desired grade.

Soldiers don't show off.

Soldiers don't ask questions.

Soldiers don't complain.

Soldiers just get the job done.

Trademark question: "What will we be graded on?"

The Heavy Weapons Guy

The Heavy Weapons Guy isn't the swiftest.

To compensate, he unleashes a near-aimless fusilade of effort in class, at home, in office hours, on the newsgroup, over email and with the TA.

The trademark behavior of these students is doing everything the hard way.

The Heavy Weapons Guy usually grinds their way to a solid C.

The Demoman

Nothing can satiate the Demoman's thirst for knowledge.

The Demoman is the student that aces all the assignments, nukes all the tests and earns all the bonus points.

The trademark maneuver of the Demoman is blasting the curve into orbit, leaving behind only the charred remains of his classmate's grades.

The Sniper

Snipers excel at acing tests, but are almost nonfunctional for any other task.

Since they lie virtually motionless for most of the semester, they tend to surprise the crap out of the instructor when grading exams.

[In my courses, your grade is either your project grade or your final exam grade, whichever is higher. Every year, a Sniper with a solid F on the project makes a headshot on the final to emerge with an A.]

The Medic

The Medic answers questions for classmates in the classroom, on the forum and in person.

Medics usually get their grades bumped up by half or even a whole grade.

When a Medic attaches himself to a Heavy Weapons Guy, the instructor is often so grateful that the Medic earns an A.

The Engineer

Engineers create infrastructure that makes labs and assignments easier.

Having a couple Engineers in a class improves everyone's grades.

In computer science, the Engineer corrects bugs in assignment specifications, provides test cases, builds testing frameworks, and gives away helper scripts.

Like the Medic, the exceptional Engineer often bumps his grade by a half or whole letter grade.

The Scout

Not really prepared for (or interested in) a difficult course, the scout sits in on the first week of several classes, and drops anything that looks it might require more than showing up and staying awake.

Scouts that fail to identify and drop a difficult course end up charging ahead to map out the territory at the bottom end of the curve for everyone else.

Trademark question: "Do you expect students to work hard in this class?"

The Spy

The Spy, of course, attempts to cheat their way through.

The redeeming weakness of the Spy is that students too stupid to pass the class are usually too stupid to cheat without getting caught.

Trademark statement: "Oh, I didn't know that was considered cheating."

The Pyro

The Pyro loves to flame the instructor, the class, the assignments, the tests, the textbook, his partner and pretty much anything that isn't himself.

Pyros can and will complain about everything.

Pyros will challenge every point lost on an exam or assignment.

The only redeeming quality of the Pyro is that their unyielding sense of injustice drives them to turn in any Spies they uncover.

Trademark statement: "It's not fair to grade me on that."

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Procrastination.... Procrastination

Tuesday, May 03, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (0)

Now, One thing I have to confess about my experience here in Saudi is the amazing lack of work and things to do.

I have to confess that this had made me a bit of a lazy bum, I mean I used to be such an active person, my day would usually start at 7 am and I would not get home till 11 pm. I was very active indeed!
but, since I left clinical work and began my academic life, things have changed drastically. I still consider myself on a long vacation. I mean working from 9 till 12 and going back home is not work, Yes I do get paid. but I don't consider my self working.

This actually had a negative impact, I'm supposed to get back to my original stamina and capabilities before I head to the US. And I'm seriously trying, but things are not as they used to, I have more responsibilities to my wife, even if I get to stay late, that is till 3 Pm!, I get multiple worried calls and I literally have nothing much to do while there.

it's kind of disturbing indeed, but I guess it'll take some time to to get used to.

On a different note, I was looking for an image to post here, but I stumbled upon a very interesting link: check this Saudi Wedding in 1978. It's not much different than what Jordanian weddings used to be at that time.

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Planned Pregnancy: what do you think?

Wednesday, April 27, 2011 / Posted by Tha2ir / comments (2)

Well, It's been almost 10 months since I got married. I'm glad that I didn't listen to all that crab that marriage is sweet at the beginning and gets harder by time. Now, I'm convienced with what some wise people advised me. the most difficult time is in the first couple of years.


I can say that I have been through the roughest part, the part where each side has to make compromises and stand grounds on some issues. I for the most feel that I did make many compromises but also made some ground rules. still, it's a process in the going.

One issue that's been surfing lately is the idea of having a baby. I was lucky enough to have parents and in-laws who thought the idea of taking some time before having a baby was a good one.
we were in this together, my wife and me. but lately, I guess the motherhood feeling has been haunting my wife's thoughts and dreams. We agreed that we'll delay for the first year and then see what happens then. But lately, my wifes is only waiting for our anniversary to start trying. I love children, and I really want so many of them. but the fact that I'm currently in a transition to a new place and a new environment makes me a bit scared of the responsibility. for a start, my child will have an American citizenship, which means a lot. but then I'm afraid that with the little scholarship I have I won't be able to provide a good living for him. I believe that things go better as soon as we get a child. but I can't stop my self from thinking some dark thoughts.
Another thing is my wife. I hope that other couples go through the same phase. Whenever I get with an argument with my wife, she always ends up crying and saying that she's afraid this relationship won't work! I mean I know that I can be a rough tempered guy, and I know that I have a sharp tongue. But I always apologize for it and I'm really getting better at controlling my temper. But this scares me to think that I'm afraid of having a baby and then parting up on the way. I love my wife and I can't think of anyone else who can understand me as much as she or make me happy as much as she. But sometimes, it's just hard to keep hearing these ideas and not thinking if we really were meant to be together.

So many thoughts, so many thoughts.

My Anniversary is on July, I guess by that time I hope things would have settled. at least she can understand that I'm an easy person, and that arguments between couples is a normal thing in the first couple of years. at least then I'll stop having all these dark ideas.

Women, you can't live with them and you can't survive with out them ,and we fall in love with them..... I hate that.

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